Thursday, October 28, 2010

Life pe Fida, JD pe Fida


At 00:52 hrs its probably my JD speaking
or its probably my heart; what ever is the reason it made me open my blog page and scribble my heart down on a piece of HTML page.

What would I ever do without V who
Even after 4 pegs;
Even after not cooking;
Even after not tiding up;
Loves me like never before

What would we do without friends like S
Who without fail accompanies me till my last drink;
Who loves seeing us together;
Smiles at our fights and accepts us as who we are,
Sings and dances with us
Sharing joys and sadness together

For V and our very close friend S; for friendship and life





Wednesday, June 16, 2010

What's your greatest fear?

The fear of being myself,
The fear of pleasing other,
The fear of being able to be;
a good daughter, wife, sister, friend, colleague
The fear of living life to my hearts content

In life we often do things to please others, this is mainly because we fear to live life in our own way, to our hearts content . The moment we move out of this circle and start taking action coz you want to and you'd love to accomplish something in life; your perspective of life changes.

To have this conviction faith is important, faith in life and in your own self. Then from that moment on you don't look back and you don't fear anyone.

Its not easy to have this faith and fearless journey, at times it can also me mistaken for arrogance. In such times we need to check ourselves as we are the own judge of our life and if you think you are right, then.

Just do it fearlessly!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Do you owe an apology to anyone? Why?

That's todays topic of NaBloPoMo. I wasnt particularly exicited about the topic coz the answer is NO.....

I appologise then and there if I need to and so there is no need to carry a backlog.

Not to apologise is being a coward,
Which hurts you and others.
To appologise is to be brave
speak your heart and smile

:)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Freedom


I looked up the meaning of Freedom and found that it is the ability to act freely ~ a state in which somebody is able to act and live as he or she chooses, without being subject to any undue restraints or restrictions.

I question if we are really free from our own guilt of thought action and deeds? I don’t think so. How many times have we given our near and dear ones the space that they need? Do we even realise that in the name of relationship we are imposing things rather than letting people grow and express their views. This is exactly what happens with our folks, siblings, friends and colleagues. Just as we get to know them we expect too much from them and slowly our ego starts dictating their life. This is something that I have realised over the years and I make conscious effort to give space in my relationship.

Is India free?

We live in a free country and we thankfully don’t live in an age where you are persecuted for expressing your thought, views and actions. Think again do we really live in a free country? As a country we are talking about a GDP growth of 8.6 % what sense does this make to those who still suffer from the basics of education and poverty? How does this help those young girls who are forced into a marriage? Over here we create a law to protect someone wherein use the same law to destroy many others. How fair is this? Where is the freedom gone to fight for one’s rights?
Today our society is male and female equally dominated, in the race of showing powers we have forgotten to be compassionate to others. The problem really is that everyone wants create their own rule. If we all are good enough to manage ourselves why do we need a democratic government and a bunch of cartoons to rule over it? I am not trying to blame the government and the people who try their best to organise themselves for the betterment of the society. I am trying to blame those men and women in black, white, brown and grey who are so week to give into their pride and self respect for their own petty pleasures to support bribery and injustice. Where is the sense of those millions common mortal gone to support these men and women in black, white, brown and grey? – I think of all these things and feel so tiny and guilty of not being able to do anything about this, but then again if I given into this thought I am denying my own freedom to think express and act as an individual.

Indira Gandhi's view of Freedom

During her leadership Indira Gandhi addressed the youth of our country and said that "You will have to take the lead, create ad run the country.As leaders we can only show the way YOU the Youth of India will have way the road that is created for you."
She said when "I walk around and meet people, they all give me a list of things that they would like to have in their area, town and village but no one has ever come to me saying what they would do for their area, town and village. This action is equally important. The victory of a country depends on their youth and if the youth can't fulfill the dreams of the country then 1, 10 or even 20 leaders rule the place it will not make any difference to the country.The only difference between freedom and slavery is that when you are a slave you listen to what someone else has got to say but freedom means you create your own way ahead and if we don't make efforts to save our freedom we will land up in slavery again."

Freedom of a country means safety, security, illiteracy, hunger, values, growth, mutual respect for human, environment, religion, advancement of technology and a sense of responsibility within every individual. Will this will happen wit each one of us taking responsibility for our lives, our surroundings,our society, our country and our world.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

What's your favorite poem?

English classes was my favourite classes and our English teacher Girija Miss being my favourite, as I type her name my mind wonders where she would be now.

Although I am not a great poem person, there are 2 poems that remains close to my heart from my childhood days.

The Solitary Reaper by William Wordsworth

Who starts of saying

BEHOLD her, single in the field,
Yon solitary Highland Lass!
Reaping and singing by herself;
Stop here, or gently pass!
Alone she cuts and binds the grain,
And sings a melancholy strain;
O listen! for the Vale profound
Is overflowing with the sound.

Unable to understand what she sings he says

Will no one tell me what she sings?
Perhaps the plaintive numbers flow
For old, unhappy, far-off things,
And battles long ago


and finally he says

The music in my heart I bore,
Long after it was heard no more.

Every time I read this poem I picture the poet sitting by the green paddy fields, under clear blue sky and listen to a women calling out verses in her own language just to keep her going through the day, just like our farmers in the villages.

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Although these are the ending verses of the poem, I see myself in these verses, I have always felt that in my life I have travelled the road less travelled and that has made the difference in my life.

Apart from loving these poems from my childhood days, I also enjoy reading poems written by writers who are not so famous. And finally of late I am enjoying every bit of what my cousin A writes.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

My 10th std results were not excellent, but they were not good enough to get me into a science group. I agreed and accepted to take up commerce. Would I have fancied a science group if I had scored well ? I don't know is the answer. So, after having finished schooling with a commerce background, I was wondering what next.

I wanted to do something different, become a star and shine and not let my academic figures affect my desires. I decided to do my BBM and then pursue MBA and also join a NIIT course like my brother who fared well in it.

Simultaneously there was something more exiting happening in my life, more that what I had expected it to be. My dad had asked me to apply for Hotel Management and like a good daughter I agreed to put my leg into it. I wasn't sure what I was getting into, but I was happy only because I was doing something different.

On the day of the entrance exam my dad dropped me to the examination centre and picked me up after 3 hrs.Oh no I wasn't a pampered kid, he only did that because I know my way to the centre, it was a Sunday and I guess appa was more excited for me than I was.

Within a months time I was intimated that I got selected for the next round in Chennai. Amma travelled with me to Chennai, I was wearing a Peach kurta with a parallel bottom pyjama. The panel asked me What is Coimbatore famous for ? I mumbled some thing that I cant remember now. The panellist called my city "The Manchester of India". After a few more general knowledge questions my Interview finished swiftly.

A month later I got to know I was selected, I was happy, more than me my mom and dad were. On a hot scorching afternoon of May Appa along with me, my bed and baggage landed into the hostel of IHM- Chennai.

Diana Suresh is the first girl I met in my hostel. New place, new life and a new beginning. I was scared and nervous but I lived every moment of it,even then I dint know if it was right place for me but now looking back, I am glad I decided to walk the road that was less travelled.

National Blogging Month

This month is "National Blogging Month" and is dedicated to all the bloggers in this world.

I started blogging 3 yrs ago inspired by my sister. Words and I were poles apart, but still I liked the idea of writing and so I started off and even before I new I was hooked to it. My writing has taken inspiration from all corners, people, places and things. Words convey the language of heart and I believe in writing from the heart which is probably is the the only thing that has kept me going so far.

As much as I enjoy writing, I also enjoy reading other blogs too and this joy of mine has led me to sign up for various forums where I can simply enjoy reading other's blogs. In the recent years I have developed my passion for photography and was also gifted with a Nikon D 60 SLR with a 18 -55mm lenses, I have also got my photo blog site up and running. Its been a month now and thankfully I am able to post one photo every day.

My contribution on this month towards my blog will be write a post every day Thanks to NaBloPoMo who will be suggesting ideas for me to write about, so guys check out something different every day over here.

Finally I would like to dedicate this blog to each and every person who has touched my heart through their words.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Am Back

I am back celebrating 2 yrs of our married life @ Isle of Man can't wait to write about it... I wish i had extended my hoilday to spare time for my laptop, fingers and chair...

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Orchids


Orchids and Lotus are my favourite flowers, purely because they bloom without expectation, they symbolise life to me. They teach me to live life without expecting from others. When I lived in India orchids were considered an exotic flower and so I could not afford them in my garden.

Here's to my first Orchid plant in my house.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Breaking bonds with fear


After having planned, cancelled, forgotten, rescheduled, ignored and being reluctant for years I finally managed to attend my first session at the Toastmasters yesterday. I am so glad I did that, I am happy and proud of myself not because I received a “First Timer Ribbon” but because I broke out of my own shell.
Speaking and reading in public has always been a challenge for me. I stammer for words and am conscious when I read. I remember standing bravely in front of 30 students and reciting poems at an English Class when I was 10 yrs and don’t know when that confidence turned into fear I now feel in competent and nervous about speaking in public.

Interesting speeches, narrations and a concept where everyone speaks and evaluates made me feel involved in the meeting. The 2nd half of the meeting was worth looking forward too, after feedback from the evaluators the toastmaster announced the Table Topics session. I was asked to put my name down for it, with a bit of hesitation I said yes and awaited my turn. We were asked to pick up a penny from a box; look at the year on the penny and speak about what that year reminds you of.

I could feel my heart beat fast as they called my name. I wanted to close my ears and pretend that I couldn’t listen to them but I stood up walked ahead, shook hands and scrambled my fingers into the box and waited to see what came my way. 2001 was the year on my penny and it took my memories back to my college days, it reminded me of a small town girl moving to city and experience a new life, studying course that was unusual and living away from mom and dad. That’s what I spoke about for 1 minute and 32 seconds.

People were pleased with my efforts, but I personally think I was nervous and I didn’t know what I was talking about. I am glad I got this opportunity, it’s surely a forum for me to listen, think and talk more and get rid of speech fear in my life.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Beach Closed

Few experiences in life stay with you forever especially when you meet someone for first time. I recently encountered one as I met Dhyeya. Last Saturday morning I had planned to visit my relative, shobana who had told Dhyeya her 3 yr old saying that vidya aunty is visiting us today and then they will go to beach.
Little Dhyeya woke up early in the morning, got herself ready very quickly and was waiting to go to the beach. I walked in around 10, the first 10 minutes she stood there looking at me. I gave her chocolates, which she accepted and said Thank you as she was asked to do so. Then she got busy in watching cartoon.
Soon we all had our lunch too, by then Dhyeya was curious to know more about me, she started talking to me about her nursery and her friends. As soon as I finished my lunch Dhyeya pulled my hands and walked towards the door. I stopped her half way through and asked where are you taking me and she answered “Vidya lets go to the beach before they close it “. I was awed by her innocence; I held her in my arms and told her that we shall leave in 5mins as soon as the rest of them were ready to leave.
Till the time we got out of the house she went around asking everyone to get ready soon. We finally left and shobana was giving me a lift half way. As I got of the car waving by to everyone, I saw Dhyeya crying, she got off the car and insisted that I go with her to the beach. She wouldn’t listen to anyone. My heart melted away seeing her cry, I had to convince her by saying that I shall meet her in the beach and good girls don’t cry. Shobana put her back in the car and strapped her seat belt. They left as it waved bye to them.

On my way back home I kept wondering If Dhyeya was fine, shobana sent me a text to say that she slept through the journey and had a good time later on. I was relived and amazed at how quickly children get attached be it familiar or not so familiar people.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Spring time of the Year

8am on a Saturday morning and the sun shines bright in to the bedroom. Eyes half open and hands crawling under the pillow grab her phone to check the time and tucks back into the duvet telling that it’s too early for a Saturday morning.
10am drags herself away from the bed to a cup of steaming hot coffee. 11am finally sets off the venture into the little town, to see clear skies with partially empty roads. She walks over the bridge as she walks beneath it she finds a pair of swans playing with their beaks travelling together aimlessly. Smiling faces with shopping bag in their hands hang around everywhere. End of every street there's a pub filled with youngsters trying to socialise, network and get ready for the busy night.
Markets filled with fresh and colorful greens; cabbages, spinach and courgette says pick me up and the onions and potatoes says I am your necessity; bright red tomatoes say “I am the last but not your least”. She walks further down to hear the hawkers say “Everything for 2 pound “ “Young Lady how can I help you” She stops to smile and say “eh…… can I have a kilo of oranges please”; she was lured by the salesmanship of the fruit seller. Old ladies and women accompanied by children try to make their best bargain; Saturday morning is the best day of the week for them.
Further down she finds the "inside market"; a huge building with tall roofing protecting her from the cold wind outside, rows and rows of shops fulfilling every need of a household. Fresh fish on a bed of ice, merchandise for baby, young and the old, tools shop, stationery, vegetables, fruits, cosmetics, flowers, plants, parlours and cafe you name it and you will find it. City Market shall always be the Old people's charm of this place.
Not too Far away from the city "look it’s a Football Ground!" She exclaimed; the lush green meadow with a net on either ends of the ground; young football lovers were trying to practise their skills on it. Besides it is a playground for children she could stand there for hours watching the kids play. Zoom.... goes a cyclists showing off his acrobatic skills."Did they get trained on these skills or were they born talented?" She wondered. On the public library is a huge chess board on the floor where the black and the whites are on for a fight. As she walked along the footpath she was excited looking at the young fitness freaks on a sleeveless top, cycling shorts with I pod gear for music and bottle of water in their hand.
The High Street! She could never miss that, one of the busiest streets in town. Shoppers and shopaholic grabbing Pizza slices, Mc Donald, Burger king and a coke in hand waking in and out of branded shops like Next, Marks & Spencer’s, Debenhams, Gap, Austin Reed, The VQ and so on. As she walks her ears tune into song "look into my eye.... “With a smile in her face she walks towards source of the song to find the violinist do a public performance. Every nook and corner of the street she finds various artists exhibiting themselves on a public forum.
Green Leaves spurring out of the brown bark, Yellow Purple and Red Flowers all around the city. Cheerful faces lost in their own world, bright and sunny skies and chill wind that blows though it. That's Spring time of Leeds in short.
Leeds Live it Love it

Friday, April 9, 2010

For a friend

Brave are your thoughts
Courageous are your actions
The vigour to fight and to
say "Let's do it now"
Is what I learnt from you

Timid little girl
You have a long way to go
Live life every moment
With smile in your face and
Joy in your heart.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Shopping Stuff or Junk?

During my Holiday in India, of course ventured out on a lot of shopping and once I got back home, I would be back with loads of plastic covers as a result of walking in and out of several stores. When I had to re pack into suitcase, I started ripping them of the nice fancy package and just the stuff went into my suitcase.

In the end when I finally felt like I am done and looked around to see that I am surrounded by unwanted plastic, cardboard boxes and paper. OMG! I said to myself, it seemed be a lot more that the goods that I shopped, which just goes into the bin.

When will these big brands stop emphasising on looks and package. Of-course I realise that the goods travel from the production house to the warehouse to the retailer and then to the consumer. But isn't there a better way of distributing these goods? I directly do not have an answer for this but then I realised what I could do is say No to Plastic Covers.

So from the next day I walked into the Mall and tell the cashier that I Don't need a bag, and I make sure to carry a small fordable carry bags either from Tesco or the one one my cousin gave my mom (and I flicked it from amma :P) from www.smallsteps.in and trust me I feel so good about making this decision. Now there is less junk that goes into my bin :)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Two Kinds of People

I was having this very interesting conversation about religion to an acquittance whom i had just met. As we spoke i quoted the example of Zarina Wahab's dialogue in MNIK where she explains that there is no difference between an Hindu and a Muslim and there are just 2 kinds of people in this world Good People and Bad People. I some how love this analogy and this is what i took back from the movie.

Anyways whilst discussing this our conversation slightly drifted away to the topic of karma and I was trying to explain what karma means to me and ability to eradicate bad karma in this lifetime. As we spoke she said to me that what might mean good to me might not mean good to another person, so how do you justify good deeds in this lifetime . I went on quite confident on my belief saying that "we cant justify the whole world and we don't life our life from another persons view, and so as long as you are satisfied about the actions that you do in your life you don't have to worry about others". The next thing she said was quoting my own statement that "this is exactly what happens in the world in the name of jihad". They fight for their rights claiming what they do is the right thing, and she asked me that how does that justify?

I remained speechless and only ended the conversation saying i really need to find out more on this.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Inseparable

His Smile made her blush,
but would never accept that she had fallen for him;

Coffee houses and pubs
knew them more than anyone else did
Cinemas and restaurants played their part;
in abstaining from people.

Away from the bustling city
long walks on the beaches,
she never never wanted to see the sun set.

Felt like a time, where nothing was more important
than being with each other every time.

Ego would rip them apart;
but his heart would melt as she smiled for him.

Neither with each other nor without
Best friends they were or
so they called each other.




Saturday, January 30, 2010

Apple Muffins

1 Apple - peeled, cored and chopped
Flour - 160 gms
Sugar- 50 gms
Cinnamon pwd- 1tsp
Apple Juice- 200ml
Wheat Bran - 50gms
Vanilla Essence- 1 tsp
unsalted butter- 55gms melted
Baking Powder- 1 tsp

Sift the flour, sugar, cinnamon pwd, baking powder together. Add wheat bran and apple to it, mix it with apple juice and butter.

Pre heat the oven at 190 degree.

Grease the tray or use muffin cups. fill the mixture into the tray and bake it for 25minutes.

Remove it and let it cool for 5 mins, Apple Muffins are ready :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Bringing Change

This year began with a determination of I will change things about me; and when i thought of what I wanted to change, loosing weight and being fit was the first on the list. So, there I go with a strong determination to loose weight before I go home in March. I have 7 weeks to sort myself out. I thought of joining a gym, but that dint really happen, coz most of the gym's are on a contract and i am totally jinxed about making any such commitment due to past experience.

So ya i started off with dieting, no no... i am not off food but then really watching what I eat. I am off fried food, potatoes, peas, carrots and paneer, pizzas. I have started having regular breakfast, including a lot of greens and veggies in my food, switching to skimmed milk and wheat-bran rotis. Trust me this is not depressing food in fact i feel healthy and light. Its about 2 weeks and i am going strong with this :)

Have another 5 weeks to go and lets see where i get after that!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

From Challenges to Smiles

Guess it was a best day of my life as a leader and supporter. I was trying to nurture V in faith, and oh boy! what an amazing journey it was... a struggle between heart and practicality of life during these few month I felt like a sister, a mom, a friend and a member in supporting V. There were days that I got irritated, impatient and I just wished for him to stand up and be truly happy.

He challenged all us (my fellow leaders and me) to be a leader and support people. He dint let me give up on him. Had I done that he would have failed and so would I. He brought me closer to the gohonzon, closer to myself.

And my joy had no bounds when I actually saw him receiving his Gohonzon and sharing his experience.



Thanks V for being a part of us, for the struggles and joy.

Monday, January 18, 2010

An eye opener !!

OMG !!!! is the feeling that i get when i look back. A whole year went by and i don't know how... 2009 feels incomplete. Feels like have clouded myself with my own negativity and gave into my own weakness. The result of it i became complacent and dint really care about my own self. It was not so long before V made me realise that i have stopped enjoying to write, cook, venture things and kept blaming my environment in short i had stopped living life and accepting challenges.
So... before it gets to late in this new year. I would like to say "I decide" fulfill my dreams this year. Be fit and active :)